I just want to scream!!! Tucker has been up most of the night going through withdrawal. It is absolutely horrible to watch. I feel like we are being used as a guine pig, holding things to see how he does..instead of giving him something to help him. We went from A CRAP LOAD of medicine to very little in 3 days....and Tucker is the one suffering. We have played this DAMN game for weeks now, too much, too little...and today we are still playing it. He was on patches, 8.4 mil of ativan every 4 hours, 6.5 mil of methadone every 4 hours, dex drip of 3......now we are on no patches, dex of 2.5, methadone of 4 mil and ativan of 1ml. Can you say I AM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE. I feel so helpless and Tucker is miserable, flipping around in the bed, shaking his head, like his skin is crawling...which I am sure it is. I am so sick to my tummy...I just want my boy back, my happy boy that isnt addicted to drugs.